Jacob Landers
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I woke this morning with fear, for no other apparent reason then I was in fear. Odd the way that works, some may say its anxiety, others...
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Jacob Landers
May 15, 20209 min read
When Never Comes
I was close to leaving, I should be on the road in the next few weeks. Apartment packed, van finished, jobs completed. I was supposed to...
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Jacob Landers
May 6, 202011 min read
A Spring Day Tragady
I am searching for the words to tell you a story, to tell tale of a day that I am having trouble organizing the feelings and them putting...
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Jacob Landers
May 1, 20203 min read
4am
My sheets a tangled mess, one of which a person could drown in. The thrashing lasted most of the night, losing pillows, gaining traction...
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Jacob Landers
Apr 11, 20205 min read
Saturday Morning Thoughts
The TV is stupid, I’ve known nothing more tragic than this contraption slowly picking away at all the smarts I’ve built up over the years...
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Jacob Landers
Apr 7, 20205 min read
I'm One Bad Decision Away From Being Pretty Again
It’s Saturday afternoon, I’m on my couch. Tried to listen to a speaker meeting but the speaker didn’t have a message for me, at least not...
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Jacob Landers
Apr 5, 20205 min read
Does Groundhog Day Really Exist
The definition of Groundhog Day: A situation in which a series of unwelcome or tedious events appear to be recurring in exactly the same...
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Jacob Landers
Mar 26, 20207 min read
Managing My Virus
The apocalypse is dawning and life as we know it will never be the same. We will fall to fever and cough; our insides will turn to soup...
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Jacob Landers
Mar 4, 20206 min read
Meditation Is Not What You Think
During a very brief meditation this morning I had a thought, well I had many thoughts but this one stuck, I’ve come across it before. It...
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Jacob Landers
Feb 28, 20206 min read
Defective Garbage
The insanity is alive and well within my tiny little head. Fear bounces off my heart, rebounding within me and touching all the parts...
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Jacob Landers
Feb 20, 20205 min read
How I've Mistaken Love...
If I could wonder my life away, I don’t know if I would be completely happy. I think I would be close to it, but there is always this...
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Jacob Landers
Feb 7, 202011 min read
A Trip To My Sisters
And here we sit, waiting in the SLO airport to board a flight to Austin to surprise my sister for her birthday. I’m not really the flying...
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Jacob Landers
Jan 29, 20207 min read
Pink Boxes and Purple Hearts
At times I can’t help but get filled with sadness, sadness and grief for all the horrible choices I have made. Sadness and grief for...
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Jacob Landers
Jan 20, 20206 min read
Pulling on Threads
So I’ve talked about this guy I met a couple times, Timber Hawkeye. Can’t really say he was born with that name, be cool if he was. He...
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Jacob Landers
Jan 6, 20205 min read
Momentary Outcome
I grapple with letting go, I mean who doesn’t right. We get into comfort and do not let go due to fear. I was just talking to a guy at a...
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Jacob Landers
Dec 24, 20196 min read
My Socks Don't Match
I sit to write but I have nothing to say, yet my head is filled with so much babbling bullshit. It’s like the speaker and the audience,...
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Jacob Landers
Dec 21, 20196 min read
Baby it's cold outside
Christmas, the most wonderful time of the year. Happiness abound, stockings filled with cheer, cookies and presents! As a child it was...
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Jacob Landers
Dec 12, 20196 min read
What Just Happened
I’d like to say I can’t remember the last time I was in love, but I do. It was one of the craziest experiences of my life. I didn’t know...
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Jacob Landers
Nov 26, 20196 min read
Defining I
I stare out into the parking lot at my apartment. Watch the mechanics move around, the service writers come in and out the office. I sit...
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Jacob Landers
Nov 19, 20197 min read
i have two tails
It’s 6am on a Tuesday and I don’t leave for work for another hour and a half. I don’t want to read, I’m not sure why, so I pick up the...
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